Starting weight was 250lbs when I began my journey around the beginning of August.
This morning, Down to 225lbs. Can’t wait to get back under 200’s, the weight usually comes off so much easier after that. In the meantime.. I found the motivation I was looking for.
Nothing better than a Great progress report to kick up your motivation and drive to push harder.
Y’all this photo is fucking crazy to me. So I know that I’m posed, sucking in to make my collar bones show, and slapped a Snapchat filter over it to minimize stretchmarks, but it’s it’s still ME. It’s just wild. My life has changed so munch since March and it’s absolutely wild.
I love shopping in normal stores and knowing that an XL will fit, maybe even be a little big. I love that I’m a pound away from being in 170s (a number I’ve never seen in my adult life because the first time my eating disorder took over I went from 167 to 150, and the second time I went from 186 to 180, both on binge purge cycles ofc). I love that I have the confidence to send this photo to my best friend, who is male and I’ve previously been absolutely infatuated with, as well as the guy I’m currently talking to and hear positive responses about the cardigan I was about to buy and just that I look good in general. I love being able to skip around and hug people and cling to their arm and still be fat, thick, whatever, but not disgustingly obese. Ofc I still have my days, I’m definitely not skinny, no where near where I want to be, and will definitely need skin removal and a breast lift, but I can do it.
If you hate being so ugly and fat, then why do you keep eating? Why do you keep doing things you promise yourself you’re not going to do? You’ve re-blogged it a million times, hungry hurts but starving works. Why cant you get that into your head? It’s not that hard you know, stop eating. Make excuses. You have a weight loss foster family and you’re worried they’re going to notice your eating behaviors? You know they want you to lose weight. How they always mention your legs, the clothing they wear. How they describe you. It’s obvious they think you’re fat, oh wait, they know you’re fat. So, why cant you change it? For yourself and for them. It’s not that hard. Stop eating. Exercise. Stop eating. Exercise. Stop eating. Exercise. STOP EATING. Don’t you want to make people jealous, have them stare at you? You’ll only get there by hard work and motivation. So starve. Just imagine how they’ll look at you when you come back from break skinny and dainty. The jealous glances, the snide comments, the looks. The Looks. Isn’t that what you’ve always wanted? Your friends dont want to be seen with you, your family doesn’t want you, your mother knows you’re ugly. So change it before you cant. Don’t you want to be your own thinspo? To be other peoples thinspo?
SO FIX YOURSELF AND REPEAT AFTER ME I will be skinny before break ends
I will be skinny before break ends
I will be skinny before break ends
I will be skinny before break ends
I will be skinny before break ends
I will be skinny before break ends
I will be skinny before break ends
I will be skinny before break ends
I will be skinny before break ends
I will be skinny before break ends
I will be skinny before break ends
I will be skinny before break ends I wont be the fat friend anymore
I wont be the fat friend anymore
I wont be the fat friend anymore
I wont be the fat friend anymore
I wont be the fat friend anymore
I wont be the fat friend anymore
I wont be the fat friend anymore
I wont be the fat friend anymore
I wont be the fat friend anymore
I wont be the fat friend anymore
I wont be the fat friend anymore
I wont be the fat friend anymore
I wont be the fat friend anymore
I wont be the fat friend anymore
I wont be the fat friend anymore
I wont be the fat friend anymore I will eat less
I will eat less
I will eat less
I will eat less
I will eat less
I will eat less
I will eat less
I will eat less
I will eat less
I will eat less
I will eat less
I will eat less
I will eat less
I will eat less
I will eat less
I will eat less
I will eat less
I will eat less I’ll stop craving food
I’ll stop craving food
I’ll stop craving food
I’ll stop craving food
I’ll stop craving food
I’ll stop craving food
I’ll stop craving food
I’ll stop craving food
I’ll stop craving food
I’ll stop craving food
I’ll stop craving food
I’ll stop craving food
I’ll stop craving food
I’ll stop craving food I will be the skinniest girl in my family
I will be the skinniest girl in my family
I will be the skinniest girl in my family
I will be the skinniest girl in my family
I will be the skinniest girl in my family
I will be the skinniest girl in my family
I will be the skinniest girl in my family
I will be the skinniest girl in my family
I will be the skinniest girl in my family
I will be the skinniest girl in my family
I will be the skinniest girl in my family
I will be the skinniest girl in my family